it has been a while since i've blog.. so many things has happened in my life.. and it's time for me to think back again..
wad are the things that i should think back now?.. lemme do a list

1)My Job

Gonna change my job finally, after a few hundred days of hesistation.. but where shall it be?

2)My School Life

This marks the end of many of our last semester in Ngee Ann, but for me, there's one more to go, hope i can go through it smoothly

3)My Social Life

I should open up myself to more things in life right?.. i mean, it's time for me to think about how to expand my social life, and hopefully, i will

4)My Financial Status

I wish to clear of all my debts by this june, and i know i can do it, it's just a matter of when ba.

5) My Relationship

Being one year unattached, it's time for me to find someone that i'm willing to give in my everything again, and i know i will find someone like this =)

Hmm~ just 5 simple points.. and hopefully, i will be able to do it.. RAWK ON BRYAN!! =)))

BIRTHDAY

10 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!!
but i won't be in singapore for that..
second time i will be celebrating in HONG KONG..
SO QIAO LA!!.. lols..

YAWNS.. so so tired..
slept at 7am and woke up at 9am..
i wanna go home slp!!!
i wanna take MC too..
then i can skip afternoon's lesson le..

DAMN DAMN TIREDED...
3 hours of break later..
what am i suppose to do man..
SLP WHERE?.. LOLS..

i need to work everyday lately..
have to save money for my trip..
arghs.. that means i will be dry out very very soon
anyone can sponsor me?!.. =((

MY WISHLIST FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!
1) PSP
2) ADIDAS Jacket
3) CARDIGAN
4) NUM Shirts

Just like that only.. anyone to grant my wish?? =PP

MIA

missing from work yesterday..lols..
first time i put aeroplane in my whole RTC life..
was thinking about how long i have been working there..
WOAH... it's almost like 2 years..

seeing so many pple leaving and coming in at the same time..
then i wondered..
when is it my turn to leave?..
hahas.. a penny for MY THOUGHTS!!

so i went to MAHJONG yesterday and won $30..
lucky i win.. it's like working at RTC for the 6pm shift.. LOL!!
daniel wasn't very happy yesterday..
i think i know why.. oh wells.. life's like that =))

so i woke up at 7AM today..
darn early la.. i just can't get to sleep more than 8 hours..
I DON'T KNOW WHY!! =((
darn darn hungry now..

got my library pay le..
need to chiong for work..
need to pay so many bills la..
hopefully.. by the end of this year i can clear them.. =))

message for the post: live up to what your life is meant for you!!!

MY YEARNS

firstly, sorry lauren for being late for 6-7 HOURS..
i really feel damn bad la..
thanks goodness you forgave me..
it will never happen again k?.. =)

went to queensway shopping centre to buy lauren's stuffs..
she bought a pair of adidas shoes and a FBT pants..
i wanted to buy my bottle after our dinner at the ikea..
budden it's close..
*ALL THANKS TO SOMEONE WHO ATE SO SLOWLY*
LOL!!

hmms~..on my way home from city hall..
ehs wait.. how we got there was a sudden idea..
i still duno why we went but oh wells..
only me and you know ya lauren?.. lols..

was talking about on my way home..
i was thinking..
after 17 years of my life..
what do i really want?..

these are what currently appears in my brain for now ba..
1) I WANT A STEADY RELATIONSHIP
2) I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN PLACE
3) I WANT A STABLE INCOME PART TIME JOB
4) I WANNA KNOW CLUBBING FRIENDS!!

hahas.. the 4th one is quite a weird one..
but i think it's time i face that kind of life,
i'm old enough, aren't i?..

wells.. gonna update my links now..
think about your yearns pple!! =))
P.S this word COMES FROM MR HO SENG YING.. =)))

i think i should know what i want now.. =P

TOMORROW

tml will be my official school day..
as in.. the first lesson that i MUST attend..
i hate lectures.. so it doesn't matter that much to me..

hmms~.. finally met up with lauren and seng ying today..
btu after which.. jeremy ong, yong jia and jia jun came..
then become a crowd again.. =.=
i think next time i better stick to xueli will do..

been having bad nights lately..
think i really need sleeping pills
my back still hurts at time..
wonder when my body can recover..

missing so many old times of my life..
missing the old clique i used ta be in..
missing myself from the correct world..
missing the trueness i find in myself..

damn sian..
tml's gonna be a hecticday..
gonna gym during my break..
=).. it's time for some fun!! =PP

signed off``

NOT ATTENTION SEEKING

just to assure.. i'm not an attention seeker
this is really what i feel now..
i don't like to be accused of stuffs that i never do..
I HATE IT

a blog is a place where trueness is being posted..
i often cannot get things to go my way..
i will flare up..
this is not an act of aggression.. but it's just that way i do my things..

get lost if you can't stand my attitude..
be gone if you think i'm talking crap..
i suppose my life is really in a mess..
i can't help but feeling helpless

i really need someone that can understand me well..
someone that really can lend me his or her shoulder..
someone to be with me all the while..
someone to be true to me..

jolin's slow songs are very nice.. meaningful..
it relates to how i feel now very well..

can i like you?

FRIENDSHIP

friends don't come by easy..
a group of friends don't clique together easily also..
but when one party is being left out..
have you ever thought of how he or she will feel?

i hafta admit it's hard to keep a group of friends stable..
but why am i always to first one to be distant from?..
am i really thinking too much..
or rather.. things that happen is making me think that much?

i refuse to accept what i saw from your blog..
i know it isn't those type of jealousy..
but it's just a feeling that i get from there..
i don't like being left out of things..

friendship doesn't work this way
perhaps i'm not suited for this group
perhaps i cannot get in a clique
perhaps, borne a loner, always a loner..

giving up is what i think i should do..
thankful for the happy times i had..
thankful for the trueness i felt in you all..
thankful for understanding what's my position in each and everyone's life

my life should not revolve around you all..
it's time i move on..
should not rely on people anymore..
my mum was right.
when it's time to grow, you grow..

being independant is what i should be
not trying to blame anyone here..
but i really need nothing at this moment
millions of thanks to all of you

signing off,
bryan yap